I just remembered something I wanted to blog about a long time ago but didn't, and since I'm so bored now I must as well do it.
That day I was on the bus home with Weeshian. Then he said hi to this guy. So I thought, oh must be someone he knows, cos the guy said hi back. I mean, anyone will think so right?Then Weeshian went on to ask the guy where he was going and the guy replied saying that he was going to meet a friend. After this the guy alighted. Then after a while Weeshian turned to me and you know what he actually said? He said that he mistook that guy for his cousin!!!
Haha. So strange right. If you think about it it's already so weird not to regconise your own cousin. It's even weirder if that guy didn't know who Weeshian was yet he was so friendly! If it was me I will be so puzzled if some stranger came up to me and said hi. I think I will ask the person if I knew who he/she was, and not make small talk. Maybe the guy thought he knew Weeshian too.
I wonder if it's meant to be. That we know some people and don't know other. I'm a strong believer of fate, cos I can't find better reasons to account for the people who come into our lives. Whether they stay or go, I think they in our lives to teach us things and help us grow. Just like how we are in other people's lives for a reason too.
Anyway, my brother was saying that he thought it was stupid to talk to babies using baby talk. He said that it would only make the babies less intelligent because you're indulging your baby in unintelligent and silly language. Like when when you want your baby to eat, you just say Eat, you don't go Mum mum, like what people usually do. Haha. Quite true, huh. Why on earth do people baby talk to babies anyway? I was wondering. We don't actually remember anything from before we learn how to speak right? You think babies actually think/understand anything during that period of time? Maybe the moment they learn how to speak they forget everything before that cos then they understand what's going on around them and they cannot comprehend not understanding. But then again learning and understanding is a gradual process and not something that happens in a split second huh. I wonder how it really happens. How come we cannot remember anything!! The human brain is so intriguing.
Oh I read Dan Brown's Digital Fortress. That's the last of his books I read. All his books are like the same! The mastermind is ALWAYS someone you wouldn't expect. Or rather someone that pretends to be concerned about what's going on but end up he's the mastermind. Then everyone will feel cheated/shocked. And he always manage to slip in some love story in the plot. Haha. You know maybe he's trying to say through his books that humans are unfathomable and while there is love in this world, there are lies and deception too.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Haha. I took Mo's advice and now everyone and anyone can leave comments! Yay. But I got a guestbook anyway.
Oh look at Mo's comment! She was wondering where does all the stuff go since black holes doesn't seem to have depths. But then even if black holes have depths the stuff can't possibly stay in there cos then it won't be a vacuum anymore and it will stop sucking in stuff. And I suppose the vacuums remain as vacuums right? So the stuff it sucks in just... disappears into thin air. There wasn't even air to begin with. So that means you can't atomise if you get sucked in either right? Cos atoms are still something even though you cant see them and there isn't air for the atoms to integrate into. You know what, there must really be another dimension, and that dimension must have alot of rubbish.
Why does every one think that we can time travel? It doesn't sound logical to me that you can turn time back. Then how come there isn't such technology now? Well anyway if we really can time travel then it'll be so cool! I wonder if we can change stuff while we're time travelling too. Then we can go back in time and fix problems like pollution so Mother Earth wouldn't be in the state it is in now. And we wouldn't have to put in so much effort to cut down carbon dioxide emissions. But then alot of people will lose their jobs.
Oh Mo! I didn't realise that you watched that show too! It was so sad!
Anyway, I was in town with Shunhong on Sunday and this two people approached us to do a survey. It was a Da Vinci Code survey. Haha. Shunhong thought they were doing PW. I thought it was pretty obvious that they were from Church. And they started asking us questions like whether we think the stuff in the book are true and shared some experiences with us cos we weren't Christians. So after that I asked Shunhong whether he will go to Church when he grows up and he said of course and that he will want his children to go to Church too. I asked him why, and he said because his heart tells him to. Quite right huh. I suppose it will be wierd to have been in a methodist school for 10 years and not believe in Christ. But his parents goes to the temple and when you're young you just do whatever your parents do. Oh well he said that actually he should alr be going to church.
Oh, I saw an advertisement on television for NUS Business School. It shows this Caucasian girl who just received a letter saying that she've been accepted to NUS and she and her mom just went SINGAPORE! with absolute joy. Haha. It's kinda corny, cos it just doesn't seem right that Caucasians should think that it's prestigious to come to Singapore and study in NUS. I know NUS is one of the better universities in the world. But all the really REALLY prestigious universities and colleges are in the western countries (the whole world wants to go these uni, not just Asians alone), and Asians always think that western countries are much cooler in terms of their lifestyle and size and all. So you always see Singaporeans go Wow! Yay! when they get to go overseas to further their studies, and the school doesn't necessarily have to be better than NUS. If it is, well, all the more better. But you would think its wierd if Caucasians are so happy to be coming to an Asian country to study, with all the western discrimination against asians and all. I wonder what the advertisement is trying to say. It looks to me like it's silently admitting that Westerners are of a higher class than Asians although the basic idea it's trying to convey is that NUS Business School is very good. Oh the advertisement ended with the mother telling the daughter that there are lots of cute guys in Singapore. -_-.
Oh look at Mo's comment! She was wondering where does all the stuff go since black holes doesn't seem to have depths. But then even if black holes have depths the stuff can't possibly stay in there cos then it won't be a vacuum anymore and it will stop sucking in stuff. And I suppose the vacuums remain as vacuums right? So the stuff it sucks in just... disappears into thin air. There wasn't even air to begin with. So that means you can't atomise if you get sucked in either right? Cos atoms are still something even though you cant see them and there isn't air for the atoms to integrate into. You know what, there must really be another dimension, and that dimension must have alot of rubbish.
Why does every one think that we can time travel? It doesn't sound logical to me that you can turn time back. Then how come there isn't such technology now? Well anyway if we really can time travel then it'll be so cool! I wonder if we can change stuff while we're time travelling too. Then we can go back in time and fix problems like pollution so Mother Earth wouldn't be in the state it is in now. And we wouldn't have to put in so much effort to cut down carbon dioxide emissions. But then alot of people will lose their jobs.
Oh Mo! I didn't realise that you watched that show too! It was so sad!
Anyway, I was in town with Shunhong on Sunday and this two people approached us to do a survey. It was a Da Vinci Code survey. Haha. Shunhong thought they were doing PW. I thought it was pretty obvious that they were from Church. And they started asking us questions like whether we think the stuff in the book are true and shared some experiences with us cos we weren't Christians. So after that I asked Shunhong whether he will go to Church when he grows up and he said of course and that he will want his children to go to Church too. I asked him why, and he said because his heart tells him to. Quite right huh. I suppose it will be wierd to have been in a methodist school for 10 years and not believe in Christ. But his parents goes to the temple and when you're young you just do whatever your parents do. Oh well he said that actually he should alr be going to church.
Oh, I saw an advertisement on television for NUS Business School. It shows this Caucasian girl who just received a letter saying that she've been accepted to NUS and she and her mom just went SINGAPORE! with absolute joy. Haha. It's kinda corny, cos it just doesn't seem right that Caucasians should think that it's prestigious to come to Singapore and study in NUS. I know NUS is one of the better universities in the world. But all the really REALLY prestigious universities and colleges are in the western countries (the whole world wants to go these uni, not just Asians alone), and Asians always think that western countries are much cooler in terms of their lifestyle and size and all. So you always see Singaporeans go Wow! Yay! when they get to go overseas to further their studies, and the school doesn't necessarily have to be better than NUS. If it is, well, all the more better. But you would think its wierd if Caucasians are so happy to be coming to an Asian country to study, with all the western discrimination against asians and all. I wonder what the advertisement is trying to say. It looks to me like it's silently admitting that Westerners are of a higher class than Asians although the basic idea it's trying to convey is that NUS Business School is very good. Oh the advertisement ended with the mother telling the daughter that there are lots of cute guys in Singapore. -_-.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
This is a follow up on the previous entry, cos I was just thinking about what Weeshian said about faith.
Faith is believing in something you cannot see. So that prayer I was talking about that totally didn't sound like it will happen is about faith. All prayers are about faith. All religions are about faith. Amazing how I just realised this.
I think it's so hard to have faith, and if you have faith, it's even harder to keep faith. But I think we all need faith, because well, if we base every thing just on what we see, then the world will be a whole lot less meaningful because there won't be anything to live and work for anymore.
Faith is such a powerful word. It has so much depth and meaning to it. Just like how Beautiful is such a strong description. And you know what, I think Shunhong is beautiful.
Faith is believing in something you cannot see. So that prayer I was talking about that totally didn't sound like it will happen is about faith. All prayers are about faith. All religions are about faith. Amazing how I just realised this.
I think it's so hard to have faith, and if you have faith, it's even harder to keep faith. But I think we all need faith, because well, if we base every thing just on what we see, then the world will be a whole lot less meaningful because there won't be anything to live and work for anymore.
Faith is such a powerful word. It has so much depth and meaning to it. Just like how Beautiful is such a strong description. And you know what, I think Shunhong is beautiful.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Passion AC.
You know, I think Christianity has fascinating stories. Can you call them stories? Oh well, okay, prophecies. Yea we talked about them alot today, and also about stuff that boggles the mind. Like how religion and the whole idea of a God came about since the beginning of the world. There are lots of religions right? So where did all these beliefs originate from? Honestly, I don't think there can ever be an answer to this.
Then we went on to talk about whether we can ever time travel, like go back in time so that we can answer all our questions about religion. Daryl was saying that he thinks it's possible to travel in time, as long as you can make yourself travel faster than the speed of light. Something just like how the light from stars that are already dead can still be seen on Earth. I didn't really get that, but I thought that if it's really something like that then you can only travel to the future and not back to the past right? Then again, what's the link between light and time and what about being able to travel faster than light that makes you able to transcend time? It seriously boggles the mind you know. Anyway I don't think we can time travel. Haha.
Then we talked about time as different dimensions. Like every minute, every second, maybe even every split second being a different dimension. And we also talked about just different dimensions in general. Sops was saying that those little black holes (which I didn't know about) in space that are just vacuum has so much energy (does vacuum have energy?) that if you get sucked into them you'll just atomise. I don't know if that is exactly what she said but that is what I remember. And then she said that maybe beyond the black hole its just another dimension. So I asked her what's in that dimension, and she said that nobody will know because anyone who goes in there will atomise and never come back out. Then Momo laughed and said that that's just like asking what is heaven and what is it like. Haha. I wonder if Sops was just talking nonsense. Oh and we talked about space suits too. Like astronauts have to wear space suits so that they can step on the moon and stuff like that without exploding cos of the pressure difference between your body and the vacuum in space right? Then I was wondering how does a space suit prevent you from exploding in space. Regulate the pressure? How? I can't imagine exploding from inside out. That's so horrible and painful but I think it must be an instant death. Then now I'm thinking if there is anything beyond space, as in the universe, and beyond that and beyond some more, or does it stretch to infinity and never ends. Maybe that's why you can derive the gravitational potential energy formula from the assumption that energy at infinity is zero and any object at a distance before infinity has a GPE and it's negative and use the formula for planets in space. But, what is infinity in the first place?
You know what, am I posing intelligent science questions or am I just being plain stupid by asking funny questions that sounds like science fiction? Haha, maybe it is and I'm just thinking too much. Well, back to the main point of religion. Just now during Passion AC they had a prayer about letting the nation be God's nation. I think nation as in Singapore. I was thinking how is that even remotely possible when Singapore is a secular state and is multicultural? Sounds so GP but yea how is Singapore going to belief and worship Christ as a nation when we have different races=cultural difference=different religion=different beliefs and different Gods. Aiya I don't know if I heard it right cos they were singing and praying at the same time but I thought that's what I heard.
Okay, this whole entire entry is random and pointless because it doesn't make any sense and I do think I sound very ignorant and brainless. I'm like talking about a religion which I don't even understand and science which doesn't even sound logical. I hope I don't offend anyone who reads this and no one thinks I'm being stupid.
You know, I think Christianity has fascinating stories. Can you call them stories? Oh well, okay, prophecies. Yea we talked about them alot today, and also about stuff that boggles the mind. Like how religion and the whole idea of a God came about since the beginning of the world. There are lots of religions right? So where did all these beliefs originate from? Honestly, I don't think there can ever be an answer to this.
Then we went on to talk about whether we can ever time travel, like go back in time so that we can answer all our questions about religion. Daryl was saying that he thinks it's possible to travel in time, as long as you can make yourself travel faster than the speed of light. Something just like how the light from stars that are already dead can still be seen on Earth. I didn't really get that, but I thought that if it's really something like that then you can only travel to the future and not back to the past right? Then again, what's the link between light and time and what about being able to travel faster than light that makes you able to transcend time? It seriously boggles the mind you know. Anyway I don't think we can time travel. Haha.
Then we talked about time as different dimensions. Like every minute, every second, maybe even every split second being a different dimension. And we also talked about just different dimensions in general. Sops was saying that those little black holes (which I didn't know about) in space that are just vacuum has so much energy (does vacuum have energy?) that if you get sucked into them you'll just atomise. I don't know if that is exactly what she said but that is what I remember. And then she said that maybe beyond the black hole its just another dimension. So I asked her what's in that dimension, and she said that nobody will know because anyone who goes in there will atomise and never come back out. Then Momo laughed and said that that's just like asking what is heaven and what is it like. Haha. I wonder if Sops was just talking nonsense. Oh and we talked about space suits too. Like astronauts have to wear space suits so that they can step on the moon and stuff like that without exploding cos of the pressure difference between your body and the vacuum in space right? Then I was wondering how does a space suit prevent you from exploding in space. Regulate the pressure? How? I can't imagine exploding from inside out. That's so horrible and painful but I think it must be an instant death. Then now I'm thinking if there is anything beyond space, as in the universe, and beyond that and beyond some more, or does it stretch to infinity and never ends. Maybe that's why you can derive the gravitational potential energy formula from the assumption that energy at infinity is zero and any object at a distance before infinity has a GPE and it's negative and use the formula for planets in space. But, what is infinity in the first place?
You know what, am I posing intelligent science questions or am I just being plain stupid by asking funny questions that sounds like science fiction? Haha, maybe it is and I'm just thinking too much. Well, back to the main point of religion. Just now during Passion AC they had a prayer about letting the nation be God's nation. I think nation as in Singapore. I was thinking how is that even remotely possible when Singapore is a secular state and is multicultural? Sounds so GP but yea how is Singapore going to belief and worship Christ as a nation when we have different races=cultural difference=different religion=different beliefs and different Gods. Aiya I don't know if I heard it right cos they were singing and praying at the same time but I thought that's what I heard.
Okay, this whole entire entry is random and pointless because it doesn't make any sense and I do think I sound very ignorant and brainless. I'm like talking about a religion which I don't even understand and science which doesn't even sound logical. I hope I don't offend anyone who reads this and no one thinks I'm being stupid.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Went down to watch the netball finals against HCI. Well, HCI won, but the match was like nothing I've seen before. It was so exciting and so heart-attackish I kept forgetting to cheer. I'm sorry to say this, but the HCI netball team looked like it has better defence and their girls were faster. But I tell you, AC's netball girls were fantastic! They put up such a good hard fight and I really mean a GOOD HARD FIGHT. I think that's why the match was so exciting and they lost by such a small margin. Three cheers for the AC netball team!
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I was just thinking about stuff that I've heard that I'll rather not hear. Like yesterday when Mo, Daniel and I went for lunch at Taka and he had to leave for tuition after that so he said goodbye. Then after a while he smsed me and told me that he realised that he didn't say bye to me and he apologised for it. I was like Okay... cos all along I thought that he was saying bye to both Mo and me. But actually he only remembered to say bye to Momo. At that point of time I was wondering if I'm really that insignificant. Then after thinking about it, he did apologise when he didn't have to so I guess I'm not that insignificant yet. And I thought some more and realised that I myself forget people some times too, neither am I equally nice to everyone so it wouldn't be justified if I got all angry and upset over it.
Then today I was thinking about what Alaric told me once. Something like he knows "we" (I don't know who the "we" is referring to. Maybe he didn't say we but something else.) are quite mean to me sometimes, but I should really start being a better person. I wanted to ask when has anyone in class been mean to me, because I don't remember any cases of it. But I decided that I didn't really want to hear it and make myself feel more terrible than I already did. Maybe they really meant it when they insulted me and it's not a joke like what I thought it was. Maybe something else. Or maybe his definition of mean it's simply not the same as mine. While we're on this, I wonder if I did become a better person or not. I should ask Alaric since he was the one who brought it up. I shall ask him now.
Do you think that if I was nicer, more vulnerable and pretty and girly, people will be more protective of me? Haha was just thinking cos just now Weeshian suggested that Yuenkay take a longer way to avoid stepping down a wall of approximately 60cm? Then he helped her down when he couldn't find a way. I thought that was pretty cute cos I don't think anybody will do that to me. And there are lots of other incidents too that I won't mention but yea just wondering.
Oh anyway I should really get down to replying Tong's letter. But I've got so much to tell her that I don't know where to start with so I just keep on procrastinating. It's been like a month? I feel so bad. Hmm.
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I was just thinking about stuff that I've heard that I'll rather not hear. Like yesterday when Mo, Daniel and I went for lunch at Taka and he had to leave for tuition after that so he said goodbye. Then after a while he smsed me and told me that he realised that he didn't say bye to me and he apologised for it. I was like Okay... cos all along I thought that he was saying bye to both Mo and me. But actually he only remembered to say bye to Momo. At that point of time I was wondering if I'm really that insignificant. Then after thinking about it, he did apologise when he didn't have to so I guess I'm not that insignificant yet. And I thought some more and realised that I myself forget people some times too, neither am I equally nice to everyone so it wouldn't be justified if I got all angry and upset over it.
Then today I was thinking about what Alaric told me once. Something like he knows "we" (I don't know who the "we" is referring to. Maybe he didn't say we but something else.) are quite mean to me sometimes, but I should really start being a better person. I wanted to ask when has anyone in class been mean to me, because I don't remember any cases of it. But I decided that I didn't really want to hear it and make myself feel more terrible than I already did. Maybe they really meant it when they insulted me and it's not a joke like what I thought it was. Maybe something else. Or maybe his definition of mean it's simply not the same as mine. While we're on this, I wonder if I did become a better person or not. I should ask Alaric since he was the one who brought it up. I shall ask him now.
Do you think that if I was nicer, more vulnerable and pretty and girly, people will be more protective of me? Haha was just thinking cos just now Weeshian suggested that Yuenkay take a longer way to avoid stepping down a wall of approximately 60cm? Then he helped her down when he couldn't find a way. I thought that was pretty cute cos I don't think anybody will do that to me. And there are lots of other incidents too that I won't mention but yea just wondering.
Oh anyway I should really get down to replying Tong's letter. But I've got so much to tell her that I don't know where to start with so I just keep on procrastinating. It's been like a month? I feel so bad. Hmm.
Monday, May 15, 2006
You know what. I think being able to dance is so cool!!
Honestly. I've always been full of admiration for those who can dance. Like last time when there was hk lessons there always was dancing. As in the really those that have to shake your ass and do body waves and stuff like that sort of dance. Of course it was simplified to accomodate people like me who look like clowns la. Yea, but there was people who can really dance, like Char, Wanjun, Sheila, Chermaine... and I'll be like Wow.
Haha. I've always secretly hoped that I can dance. Ok it's not much of a secret I think 1 or 2 people know it but I REALLY WANT TO BE ABLE TO DANCE WELL! And I secretly like dancing too. Oh well I have bones and muscles that are as flexible as tree branches so I doubt my wish gonna come true. But I used to be able to bend all the way backwards ok. That was when I was still in Chinese dance.. er primary 3? Back then I already never showed much talent for dancing. Whole day get scolded by the teacher for not doing this and that properly. I still remember one time during one performance we were all supposed to lie on our side and do some pretty arm wave thing for a certain number of counts then roll to the front to do something else. Guess what I did? I continued doing my pretty arm wave after the designated counts and the music had alr moved on and I didn't even realised the entire group had already rolled forward. The teacher had to hiss at me from backstage. Haha how embarrassing! I was so traumatised I quit a short while after that.
Well anyway, next time when I have children of my own I'm going to make my daughter learn how to dance because it's just so pretty and glamorous! And I'm going to make my son learn the piano so that girls will be as impressed with him as I am with Shunhong. Then I'm going to make them take up some sports so that they will be sporty. Maybe tennis for the girl, and track for the boy. Haha I'm going to make such a terrible mother when I grow up.
Honestly. I've always been full of admiration for those who can dance. Like last time when there was hk lessons there always was dancing. As in the really those that have to shake your ass and do body waves and stuff like that sort of dance. Of course it was simplified to accomodate people like me who look like clowns la. Yea, but there was people who can really dance, like Char, Wanjun, Sheila, Chermaine... and I'll be like Wow.
Haha. I've always secretly hoped that I can dance. Ok it's not much of a secret I think 1 or 2 people know it but I REALLY WANT TO BE ABLE TO DANCE WELL! And I secretly like dancing too. Oh well I have bones and muscles that are as flexible as tree branches so I doubt my wish gonna come true. But I used to be able to bend all the way backwards ok. That was when I was still in Chinese dance.. er primary 3? Back then I already never showed much talent for dancing. Whole day get scolded by the teacher for not doing this and that properly. I still remember one time during one performance we were all supposed to lie on our side and do some pretty arm wave thing for a certain number of counts then roll to the front to do something else. Guess what I did? I continued doing my pretty arm wave after the designated counts and the music had alr moved on and I didn't even realised the entire group had already rolled forward. The teacher had to hiss at me from backstage. Haha how embarrassing! I was so traumatised I quit a short while after that.
Well anyway, next time when I have children of my own I'm going to make my daughter learn how to dance because it's just so pretty and glamorous! And I'm going to make my son learn the piano so that girls will be as impressed with him as I am with Shunhong. Then I'm going to make them take up some sports so that they will be sporty. Maybe tennis for the girl, and track for the boy. Haha I'm going to make such a terrible mother when I grow up.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
I hate shows with sad endings. Why must shows have sad endings!! I just watched the final episode of this Chinese martial arts show with an ending so horribly sad it shouldn't even be filmed in the first place. What insane show starts out with 7 good friends and ends with only 1 left. I'm damn sad now I don't know how to describe the kind of heaviness and sadness I feel. Yea it's just a show but its so inhumane!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
We talked abit about politics in GP class today.
Then after class I was thinking, why is politics so complicated and mean? If you have an office job, there are all the hush-hush issues and the stabs-in-the-back, and you go, Oh, those are office politics. Actually, I'm not sure if what I just said is true la. Haha. But whenever we try to get hints for exams from our maths teacher, he/she (this is for secrecy) will say "I don't know. I haven't seen the paper. I will see the paper when you people see it." And when we ask why, he/she will go "Aiya, politics, politics."
Being one of the politically apathetic youths, I didn't really understand what that statement meant. And even after the numerous GP lessons about it, I still don't know what politics is all about. And this is the definition from Wikipedia.
Politics is a process by which decisions are made within groups. Although the term is generally applied to behavior within governments, politics is observed in all human (and many non-human) group interactions, including corporate, academic, and religious institutions.
Well, anyhow, I think politics is bad. It probably has the ability to turn the kindest, most sincere soul into some kind of mean, evil and ugly warlock. But then again, will there be countries at all without politics? How about law and order? Will the world be in chaos?
You know what, I think I should just stop talking about something I have absolutely no clue about cos I'm obviously making a fool of myself here. ):
Then after class I was thinking, why is politics so complicated and mean? If you have an office job, there are all the hush-hush issues and the stabs-in-the-back, and you go, Oh, those are office politics. Actually, I'm not sure if what I just said is true la. Haha. But whenever we try to get hints for exams from our maths teacher, he/she (this is for secrecy) will say "I don't know. I haven't seen the paper. I will see the paper when you people see it." And when we ask why, he/she will go "Aiya, politics, politics."
Being one of the politically apathetic youths, I didn't really understand what that statement meant. And even after the numerous GP lessons about it, I still don't know what politics is all about. And this is the definition from Wikipedia.
Politics is a process by which decisions are made within groups. Although the term is generally applied to behavior within governments, politics is observed in all human (and many non-human) group interactions, including corporate, academic, and religious institutions.
Well, anyhow, I think politics is bad. It probably has the ability to turn the kindest, most sincere soul into some kind of mean, evil and ugly warlock. But then again, will there be countries at all without politics? How about law and order? Will the world be in chaos?
You know what, I think I should just stop talking about something I have absolutely no clue about cos I'm obviously making a fool of myself here. ):
Monday, May 08, 2006
I think I'm so useless you know.
My mum asked me to email the CPF to ask something about her application for the Workfare Bonus Scheme. So I did. Then they replied, and I was like huh, what is the person talking about? But that shouldn't be my fault right? I mean, I don't know anything about the Progress Package/Workfare Bonus Scheme since it doesn't concern me. Well anyway, so I had to get my brother and he clarified some stuff with the person. Today, the person replied again and said stuff like ok we'll look into it and blah blah blah, and I wanted to reply to thank the person but I didn't know how to go about doing it. Do I say, Your kind help is greatly appreciated. Thank you? But that doesn't sound right. So once again, I had to get my brother to do it. ):
So useless right. I never liked writing formal letters in secondary school. The sentence structure just never seem to sound appropriately formal. I think I better learn soon. I'm almost 18!
Just now, I was thinking about chapel today. Then, I thought about Lifeng cos she led chapel today. I think she's so smart it's unbelievable. I'm damn awed by her every time I think about it. How is anybody capable of having so many commitments, yet graduate with distinctions in every thing including S papers? There's only 24 hours in a day. Ok, but this is not the point.
The point is when I thought about Lifeng, I thought about Shunhong telling me about what Lifeng said during Honours Night last year. And then I thought about Shunhong telling me that looking back, he's glad that his 2 years in junior college was so fufilling and enriching and colourful. I remember telling him to shut up, because I was so upset that my junior college years is exactly the opposite of his and it's ending soon.
You should see Shunhong's CCA record. It's 3 pages long and it's impressive. He did qualify for Honours Night right. There's @artikulation, Kronos!, EnCOre, SYF CO, college sports meet, college cross country, Track and Field nationals. His CCA includes Track and Field, Chinese Orchestra and Performing Arts Group. I suppose there's more stuff, but I can't remember. And despite all these time consuming activities, his results weren't bad. Good enough for him to secure a place in NUS Science, in UK King's College, and there was a place for him in Royal College of Music too, though he gave that up. It's insane! I'm JEALOUS.
My jc life, on the other hand, it's devoid of colours. It includes WATCHING @rtikulation, EnCOre, BEING PRESENT for sports meet and college cross country, CHEERING (only abit) for Track and Field Nationals. I had to be threatened with demerit points to join a CCA in my second year. It's Track and Field by the way. And now, I'm not turning up for training at all because my lousy attitude tells me that it's really pointless. My results are abysmal despite all the free time I have on my hands. It amazes me to think of how two people together can be world apart. Suddenly, I think I'm not good enough for him.
Anyway, I just remembered how retarded I am. I was watching Top Fun just now (watching that alone is quite retarded), and then there was a performance by the young boy who can drum really well? Yea, he was drumming to the Christian song One Way. At first I thought he was drumming to a rock song can! Halfway through then I realized it's One Way. Oh man, I hope I'm not insulting the faith.
My mum asked me to email the CPF to ask something about her application for the Workfare Bonus Scheme. So I did. Then they replied, and I was like huh, what is the person talking about? But that shouldn't be my fault right? I mean, I don't know anything about the Progress Package/Workfare Bonus Scheme since it doesn't concern me. Well anyway, so I had to get my brother and he clarified some stuff with the person. Today, the person replied again and said stuff like ok we'll look into it and blah blah blah, and I wanted to reply to thank the person but I didn't know how to go about doing it. Do I say, Your kind help is greatly appreciated. Thank you? But that doesn't sound right. So once again, I had to get my brother to do it. ):
So useless right. I never liked writing formal letters in secondary school. The sentence structure just never seem to sound appropriately formal. I think I better learn soon. I'm almost 18!
Just now, I was thinking about chapel today. Then, I thought about Lifeng cos she led chapel today. I think she's so smart it's unbelievable. I'm damn awed by her every time I think about it. How is anybody capable of having so many commitments, yet graduate with distinctions in every thing including S papers? There's only 24 hours in a day. Ok, but this is not the point.
The point is when I thought about Lifeng, I thought about Shunhong telling me about what Lifeng said during Honours Night last year. And then I thought about Shunhong telling me that looking back, he's glad that his 2 years in junior college was so fufilling and enriching and colourful. I remember telling him to shut up, because I was so upset that my junior college years is exactly the opposite of his and it's ending soon.
You should see Shunhong's CCA record. It's 3 pages long and it's impressive. He did qualify for Honours Night right. There's @artikulation, Kronos!, EnCOre, SYF CO, college sports meet, college cross country, Track and Field nationals. His CCA includes Track and Field, Chinese Orchestra and Performing Arts Group. I suppose there's more stuff, but I can't remember. And despite all these time consuming activities, his results weren't bad. Good enough for him to secure a place in NUS Science, in UK King's College, and there was a place for him in Royal College of Music too, though he gave that up. It's insane! I'm JEALOUS.
My jc life, on the other hand, it's devoid of colours. It includes WATCHING @rtikulation, EnCOre, BEING PRESENT for sports meet and college cross country, CHEERING (only abit) for Track and Field Nationals. I had to be threatened with demerit points to join a CCA in my second year. It's Track and Field by the way. And now, I'm not turning up for training at all because my lousy attitude tells me that it's really pointless. My results are abysmal despite all the free time I have on my hands. It amazes me to think of how two people together can be world apart. Suddenly, I think I'm not good enough for him.
Anyway, I just remembered how retarded I am. I was watching Top Fun just now (watching that alone is quite retarded), and then there was a performance by the young boy who can drum really well? Yea, he was drumming to the Christian song One Way. At first I thought he was drumming to a rock song can! Halfway through then I realized it's One Way. Oh man, I hope I'm not insulting the faith.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
I read something in a magazine while waiting for Momo yesterday, and it goes like this:
To find that special someone who fills your life - regardless of his or her calling, gender, belief or race - is a rare and precious thing.
And I thought, yea how true.
I'm feeling so horribly empty now it's just... terrible la huh. Roar.
To find that special someone who fills your life - regardless of his or her calling, gender, belief or race - is a rare and precious thing.
And I thought, yea how true.
I'm feeling so horribly empty now it's just... terrible la huh. Roar.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
I got dragged to Singapore River yesterday by Shunhong so that he could watch the Chelsea-Man U soccer match, claiming that it's like a rugby match between AC and RJ. Haha.
Before the match we had Sizzling Rock by the river, and it really lives up to its name. The oil was really sizzling on the rock, on top of that, it was spurting everywhere! And the chicken was raw on one side. I was like, so how am I supposed to eat this? Apparently I was supposed to flip it myself if I want it cooked. What the hell. I mean, who in the world eats raw chicken? Especially with the bird flu now. Anyway, when I finally managed to eat it, it was good. It was a pricey meal though. But Shunhong paid! Haha, he actually paid. Oh which reminds me. He actually managed to ask for a table without speaking. And he called for bill without speaking too. AND he merely nodded at the people who served us. The reason he gave for that was because everyone does this. What's wrong with just opening your mouth to say, Table for two please, Bill please, and Thank you, right? So I told him to stop acting high class when he isn't, in case he's doing it the wrong way. Sheesh.
Yes. So after dinner we stopped over at this drinking place with a TV to watch the match. The waitress was like Table for two? Then she took a good look at both of us and she asked, Above 18 or below 18? Haha. So funny! Looks like I'm not the only one who looks underaged. Anyway, since I'm not really 18 yet, I decided to keep quiet and let Shunhong talk. Aiya, the woman actually believed him. He ordered beer. BEER. That's so uncle! Yucks. Then he said that it's high class beer and tastes different. Stella Artois. See, he's trying to act high class again. And Man U lost. 3-0. They should have more matches like this. It was exciting.
Before the match we had Sizzling Rock by the river, and it really lives up to its name. The oil was really sizzling on the rock, on top of that, it was spurting everywhere! And the chicken was raw on one side. I was like, so how am I supposed to eat this? Apparently I was supposed to flip it myself if I want it cooked. What the hell. I mean, who in the world eats raw chicken? Especially with the bird flu now. Anyway, when I finally managed to eat it, it was good. It was a pricey meal though. But Shunhong paid! Haha, he actually paid. Oh which reminds me. He actually managed to ask for a table without speaking. And he called for bill without speaking too. AND he merely nodded at the people who served us. The reason he gave for that was because everyone does this. What's wrong with just opening your mouth to say, Table for two please, Bill please, and Thank you, right? So I told him to stop acting high class when he isn't, in case he's doing it the wrong way. Sheesh.
Yes. So after dinner we stopped over at this drinking place with a TV to watch the match. The waitress was like Table for two? Then she took a good look at both of us and she asked, Above 18 or below 18? Haha. So funny! Looks like I'm not the only one who looks underaged. Anyway, since I'm not really 18 yet, I decided to keep quiet and let Shunhong talk. Aiya, the woman actually believed him. He ordered beer. BEER. That's so uncle! Yucks. Then he said that it's high class beer and tastes different. Stella Artois. See, he's trying to act high class again. And Man U lost. 3-0. They should have more matches like this. It was exciting.
Monday, April 24, 2006
I was on the bus home just now, and I saw NS boys. Haha. Their name tags caught my eye, and I suddenly thought about my brothers' name tags when they were in NS. Like, J J Ong and J X Ong. So cool isn't it! Then I thought about S H Liu, and I decided that it sounds very... Shunhongish. Imagine if I were to enlist, my name will be K T Ong. HAHA. That totally sounds like crap.
Well anyway, I wanted to visit Yan's blog just now, and I went to her old blog. Then I was like, eh, when did she shift her blog again? Haha. I think like, maybe my brain is undergoing denaturation or something. Does brain matter contain protein? I guess not. Ok point is, I think Yan's entries always brings back a flood of fond memories of those beautiful St Nicks days. I'll just put the link so you'll know what I mean, but I know Yan will kill me if she ever knew I was advertising her blog like this, though I doubt she'll ever find out. But I'll just copy and paste some stuff.
"... Blue people who give you hugs like free, blue people who write you notes like free, blue people who shower you with sweets and nonsensical things just to make you happy. ... Life used to be an adventure, because with blue people, you never know what silly and outrageous things we're going to do next. ... I miss the times in school when we would just laugh ourselves senseless over anything and everything."
So true. Those days when giving hugs was the norm, when doing silly, childlike stuff used to make us so happy. You know, what I feel about this, I really don't know how to put them in words. If back then you asked me, I think I would have called it love. Now I'll say it was probably superficial, because if it was all so perfect, then why didn't it last? I guess we all grew up, matured, and went our own way. Out of common behaviour among so many people, only a few will follow you through. People like Daggers (: I'm not sure if that made sense, but you get what I mean?
Well anyway, I wanted to visit Yan's blog just now, and I went to her old blog. Then I was like, eh, when did she shift her blog again? Haha. I think like, maybe my brain is undergoing denaturation or something. Does brain matter contain protein? I guess not. Ok point is, I think Yan's entries always brings back a flood of fond memories of those beautiful St Nicks days. I'll just put the link so you'll know what I mean, but I know Yan will kill me if she ever knew I was advertising her blog like this, though I doubt she'll ever find out. But I'll just copy and paste some stuff.
"... Blue people who give you hugs like free, blue people who write you notes like free, blue people who shower you with sweets and nonsensical things just to make you happy. ... Life used to be an adventure, because with blue people, you never know what silly and outrageous things we're going to do next. ... I miss the times in school when we would just laugh ourselves senseless over anything and everything."
So true. Those days when giving hugs was the norm, when doing silly, childlike stuff used to make us so happy. You know, what I feel about this, I really don't know how to put them in words. If back then you asked me, I think I would have called it love. Now I'll say it was probably superficial, because if it was all so perfect, then why didn't it last? I guess we all grew up, matured, and went our own way. Out of common behaviour among so many people, only a few will follow you through. People like Daggers (: I'm not sure if that made sense, but you get what I mean?
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Thursday, April 20, 2006
There's this thing on Ellen's blog. A survey sort of thing, something I've done like a million times when I was in lower secondary. You know the time when every one does it and sends it to you by email, so you also do it and send it to every one too. Haha. I haven't done something like that for like the longest time, so I thought it would be interesting to do it again. This one comes with two rules:
1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!
Heehee. So exciting.
1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? no
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? no
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? no
38. Hated the way you look? no
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? no
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes(?)
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? no
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? no
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? no
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no?
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog? no
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? yes
That was pretty fast.
Well school today was traumatising. Something really embarrassing happened today during GP remedial, which I think is rather inappropriate to mention here. Let's just say that I should make a bigger effort to learn how to sit properly. Oh my ):
Okay, on another note, I'm really amazed at how my GP teacher looks at the world in such a... cynical way. He seems to see more negative stuff than positive stuff in things. And he reads so much into issues. I never seem to be able to delve past what's on the surface. Oh well, there's a reason why he's a GP teacher and I need GP remedial right? Haha. Anyway, we learnt what's fallacies during GP yesterday. Now everything around all sound like fallacies to me. So wierd.
Oh, I met Weeshian and Yuen Kay at the bus stop on my way home after school, and I witnessed something I don't know whether to call sweet or stupid. Yuen Kay was having a running nose and they didn't have tissue, and Weeshian actually asked every one at the bus stop whether they had tissue. Yes, including strangers. If it was Shunhong, he will never do this for me. Not on his own accord, not if I ask him to. But I love him anyway. <3
1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!
Heehee. So exciting.
1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? no
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? no
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? no
38. Hated the way you look? no
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? no
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes(?)
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? no
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? no
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? no
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no?
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog? no
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? yes
That was pretty fast.
Well school today was traumatising. Something really embarrassing happened today during GP remedial, which I think is rather inappropriate to mention here. Let's just say that I should make a bigger effort to learn how to sit properly. Oh my ):
Okay, on another note, I'm really amazed at how my GP teacher looks at the world in such a... cynical way. He seems to see more negative stuff than positive stuff in things. And he reads so much into issues. I never seem to be able to delve past what's on the surface. Oh well, there's a reason why he's a GP teacher and I need GP remedial right? Haha. Anyway, we learnt what's fallacies during GP yesterday. Now everything around all sound like fallacies to me. So wierd.
Oh, I met Weeshian and Yuen Kay at the bus stop on my way home after school, and I witnessed something I don't know whether to call sweet or stupid. Yuen Kay was having a running nose and they didn't have tissue, and Weeshian actually asked every one at the bus stop whether they had tissue. Yes, including strangers. If it was Shunhong, he will never do this for me. Not on his own accord, not if I ask him to. But I love him anyway. <3
Saturday, April 15, 2006
This is a new beginning. Haha.
I debated with myself over whether I should delete my past entries. After all, they held so much memories. But, after reading through them, I decided to just delete them all. All I kept were the two latest entries. Most of them were so pessimistic and sad and were so shallow they didn't contain any meaningful content. Saying that is equivalent to branding myself as that, since it's what I wrote. I mean, what you write is what you think, and what you think is who you are, right? Well, if it's true, then I think I'm a terrible person.
Ah well.
I debated with myself over whether I should delete my past entries. After all, they held so much memories. But, after reading through them, I decided to just delete them all. All I kept were the two latest entries. Most of them were so pessimistic and sad and were so shallow they didn't contain any meaningful content. Saying that is equivalent to branding myself as that, since it's what I wrote. I mean, what you write is what you think, and what you think is who you are, right? Well, if it's true, then I think I'm a terrible person.
Ah well.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
I'm so annoyed. I hate being a substitute, you know. Have I mentioned this before? I don't know why I keep letting this issue affect me. I mean like after all it has been going on ever since last year. Maybe I'm just refusing to acknowledge the fact that I'm never ever ever EVER going to be in the picture. I come into the picture only when one or the other isn't around. I don't know why I keep letting myself be a substitute. Or maybe I'm not even a substitute, simply thinking too highly of myself.
I'm such a loser. I don't even dare to mention names. But I think it's kinda obvious anyway.
Well, Daggers are my bestest girlfriends. Maybe I don't have anyone in school, not really anyway. Aiya I'm not sure. But there's still plenty of people in class I have to get to know better. That's what I'm going to do. To get to know everyone in class better before we all graduate at the end of this year.
Oh I've been thinking about this. I think my life really does revolve around Shunhong, Shunhong and more Shunhong. I've been trying to deny it for the longest time. Ok, maybe NS will help to cure the problem.
I'm such a loser. I don't even dare to mention names. But I think it's kinda obvious anyway.
Well, Daggers are my bestest girlfriends. Maybe I don't have anyone in school, not really anyway. Aiya I'm not sure. But there's still plenty of people in class I have to get to know better. That's what I'm going to do. To get to know everyone in class better before we all graduate at the end of this year.
Oh I've been thinking about this. I think my life really does revolve around Shunhong, Shunhong and more Shunhong. I've been trying to deny it for the longest time. Ok, maybe NS will help to cure the problem.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Shunhong's been off to Tekong for 2 days already (or should I say only?). I didn't send him off and I'm majorly regretting it now. Shame on me for caring so much about what his mum will think. He told me that his mum will question me about why wasn't I in school when it was a Friday, and that will give her a very bad impression of me. Since my reputation with her is already bad enough, I should have just went with my heart. I wouldn't have minded skipping school just to see how is it going to be like for him in the next I don't even know how many weeks.
In fact, when I woke up and read a message he sent me at 5 AM I started having a panic attack. I started imagining all sorts of horrible stuff they do to those boys, MY boy, including making them wake up at 5 AM, over at that island. I'm sorry, I know 5 AM isn't all that early, but I don't think he wakes up at 5 AM very often, except maybe to watch soccer or something, and this is military training we're talking about. It upsets me to think about it. Alright, at least they sleep at 10 pm. I know, I'm being such a fuss. It's not like he's hasn't had less sleep than that before, but still, it's military training we're talking about! ):
Anyway, in my panic I remembered an entry in Eileen's blog about her boyfriend enlisting last year, and I felt abit more assured after reading it. 'Army life seems to be pretty much alike St John training camps, just without the change parades and with more sleep most nights. It isn't a wholly new lifestyle unalike something I expected, and I welcome mental preparation. Its 10 males to a bunk, with [apparently] $200 mattresses for good sleep.' That was last year, but I don't think they will degrade the mattresses and decide to torture suddenly huh. So I guess I should stop being retarded and making Shunhong sound like a girl. He's definitely man enough for it. At least he's safe there.
Shunhong's in Mohwok. Or is it Mohwak? Mahwak? Mohawk? I can't even remember his platoon's name!! I really should have just went on Friday to send him off. Mohawk sounds strangely familiar though. I think I've heard it before. Anyway, that's not the point. The point is... his platoon name. It's something along that line. Haha.
Sir asked me how I was feeling in school on Friday about Shunhong enlisting. I told him I was fine and he said it hasn't hit me yet. And he was too right. I guess in school there were so many things happening I didn't think much about it. But once I was home I kept checking my phone for messages I know he won't be able to send. At night I layed in bed and could only think about how much I miss him. It wasn't about not being able to see him often, but I can't even talk to him often. I seriously haven't talked to him so little in one day for a very very long time. Alienated is the perfect word to describe how I feel. I should start finding stuff to distract myself. More study, perhaps?
In fact, when I woke up and read a message he sent me at 5 AM I started having a panic attack. I started imagining all sorts of horrible stuff they do to those boys, MY boy, including making them wake up at 5 AM, over at that island. I'm sorry, I know 5 AM isn't all that early, but I don't think he wakes up at 5 AM very often, except maybe to watch soccer or something, and this is military training we're talking about. It upsets me to think about it. Alright, at least they sleep at 10 pm. I know, I'm being such a fuss. It's not like he's hasn't had less sleep than that before, but still, it's military training we're talking about! ):
Anyway, in my panic I remembered an entry in Eileen's blog about her boyfriend enlisting last year, and I felt abit more assured after reading it. 'Army life seems to be pretty much alike St John training camps, just without the change parades and with more sleep most nights. It isn't a wholly new lifestyle unalike something I expected, and I welcome mental preparation. Its 10 males to a bunk, with [apparently] $200 mattresses for good sleep.' That was last year, but I don't think they will degrade the mattresses and decide to torture suddenly huh. So I guess I should stop being retarded and making Shunhong sound like a girl. He's definitely man enough for it. At least he's safe there.
Shunhong's in Mohwok. Or is it Mohwak? Mahwak? Mohawk? I can't even remember his platoon's name!! I really should have just went on Friday to send him off. Mohawk sounds strangely familiar though. I think I've heard it before. Anyway, that's not the point. The point is... his platoon name. It's something along that line. Haha.
Sir asked me how I was feeling in school on Friday about Shunhong enlisting. I told him I was fine and he said it hasn't hit me yet. And he was too right. I guess in school there were so many things happening I didn't think much about it. But once I was home I kept checking my phone for messages I know he won't be able to send. At night I layed in bed and could only think about how much I miss him. It wasn't about not being able to see him often, but I can't even talk to him often. I seriously haven't talked to him so little in one day for a very very long time. Alienated is the perfect word to describe how I feel. I should start finding stuff to distract myself. More study, perhaps?
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