Haha. This was on Mo's blog, and I saw my name on the to do list, so here goes!

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~7 Random facts abt me

1)i dont really know how to do these kinda things cos i always dont know how to write
2)i always thought that these kinda things shldnt be written in proper english. to me, it's like making this thing lose its whole point
3)i always thought that i was able to prioritise very well. but ive discovered that i dont.
4)i want to be able to play smart, study smart. like shunhong's classmate jeanette. when shunhong told me how good her results were, my jaw nearly dropped. no actually, it dropped. no really, you'll believe me if you see her. she totally has a "i score A for clubbing but F for everything else" look. and she sounds like that too. but NOOO. she scores A for EVERYTHING. check out her friendster and you'll know what i mean. i wanna be like her kind!
5)i think i tend to digress
6)i hate pain
7)my self confidence is quite low. i suppose.


~7 things that scare me..

1)losing the people i love
2)dying
3)making a fool of myself in front of people that intimidates me and have them laughing at me
4)cockroaches
5)all creepy crawlies in general but esp cockraches
6)being an outcast
7)growing up


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~7 things i like most

1)my mother, my father and my brothers
2)shunhong
3)my friends
4)home sweet home
5)going to school and slacking ard when i can afford to
6)going out and having fun. like shopping, tanning, lanning blah blah blah
7)pretending that i can sing very well. hahaha.

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Although I'm sorely disappointed, I'm not going to be selfish. But I'm not going to make any sacrifices either. Haha sounds so contradictory.

I swear I'm sincerely trying to become a better person. It took a chat with Alaric long ago, numerous "You know all my friends see you as a mean and fierce person?" from Shunhong, and some "Kiat, you're such a tyrant!" from Yan before I realised that that's how everyone sees me, and that's not what I want. Therefore there's this whole better person thing.

Honestly, I don't think I was like this last time! And I suspect that it's because of Yan. Yan in secondary school was very fierce and a tyrant herself, and I'm someone who is very easily influenced by my friends. If you haven't noticed already, I tend to pick up the way my friends speak and act. Yea I know it's like having no mind of my own. It's how I've been all along. I remember in sec 2 my form teacher told me I let myself be influenced too easily and I need to be more assertive. Haha. Anyway, Yan is who I picked up this fierce and tyrannical behaviour from. Really! Like there was this one time in sec 3 when I waited for Shunhong for one whole hour before he called and told me he couldn't come, Yan was so angry for me while I didn't really mind. Now if Shunhong does that, I will blow my top before Yan can get angry for me. Haha. Unfortunately, I'm finding it difficult trying to revert back to being secondary school Kiat. Ironically, Yan is the one that's so nice and tame now she lets herself get bullied. Haha.

Prelims is near! And I'm desperately trying to finish studying. It's not going to happen though. So I was thinking just now what if students were paid to make notes and study. Like for every chapter you make one set of notes, and you get paid 10 dollars. And for every test/exam for which you do well, you get paid 50 dollars. Something like that. I bet every student will excel in academics la. And no one will be panicking when major exams approach. Haha. But the idea is so... obscene huh. I'm so disgusted that I even thought about it. It's like so money minded and it makes education so pointless. Forget I ever mentioned it.