I just realised that I like thinking about old times, cos I'm always thinking them.

I was just thinking about Shunhong and the past, and it's so amazing how far we've come. I have 4 people to thank for this.

1) Tong, for first introducing Shunhong to me by telling me that he is actually a year older than us and showing me his email address as evidence. That fact surprised me so much that I added him on MSN to tell him that he so did not look like he was a year older, and it all started from there.

2) Roxanne, for accidently blurting out that I liked Shunhong in front of Cheeguan the big mouth when it was supposed to be secret, and thus letting Cheeguan know.

3) Cheeguan, for being such a big mouth and telling Shunhong despite me warning him very sternly not to.

4) And lastly, Shunhong, for requiting my feelings.

Thinking of all the hk people makes me miss hk so much. Those were the days man. We met up every Sunday for lessons, got together to prepare for end-year productions, did the props, rehearsed, laughed over stupid jokes and gossip. You know what, I totally grew up in hk. Most of the people there I knew from all the way back. I seriously had so much fun over the years. I wish we didn't have to grow up into some defunct youth group that doesn't have weekly lessons.

When it comes to feeling unappreciated, I dare say I totally understand how it feels. Suddenly I'm full of admiration for all parents in the world who sometimes get shouted and snapped at when they try to do something for their children. Then I wonder if I ever not appreciate anyone, and Mum and Dad comes into mind. Haha. Just like what Mo said, how funny life can be, that a person who shld hate fillintheblanks, does fillintheblanks.

We're all so hypocritical, but we never realise it.

So now whenever I encounter something that makes me unhappy, I try to force myself to shut up and not say anything, and then I'll tell myself to say it's okay. Before you know it, I'll become a better person! Haha.

Sometimes things are really unfair, yet I'm in no power to protest. It's not as if 4 days (plus today) is very long, but it's eating up the little time left I have with him. This is all because of my own impatience and intolerance, I know. But I just couldn't help it, neither do I want to admit that it's my fault. Haha.

Anyway, don't you wish Singapore has a place for people to vent their frustrations? Like when you're really angry, or really upset, then you go to this place and let it all out. Haha. Like how I'm really upset now. If there's such a place, I imagine going there with plates and cups and hurling them against the wall with all my energy and scream vulgarities. Haha, okay maybe not. I'm much more civilised than that. But sometimes whenever I feel like hitting something, there's always nothing to hit, so I end up throwing my pillow against the wall, but that's like no kick la.

Oh after GP lesson yesterday, Mo, Sops, Yingling, Alaric and me, we went Swensons to eat. Then they were having this promotion that gives you unlimited scoops of ice cream at just 1 dollar with any main course or pasta. So we all went for it. It was crazy pls. Alaric ate 10 scoops, then Mo, Yingling and Sops both ate like 7 or 8 scoops, and I only ate 4. Haha I wonder how are they faring today? Probably all very heaty.

This pain is so bad it's even worse than scoring A2 for both maths at O level (I know I sound like a prick, but I really thought I could score A1s) . I'm feeling so horrible and miserable I wish someone would just come and knock me unconscious for a few days, so that when I wake up, everything will be okay again. I know you guys will probably think its insane if you find out what's making me so depressed. I'm not just depressed, I'm damn worried, and it's hurting so badly I'm losing my appetite, losing sleep, restless and distracted and I want to do is cry. The worst thing is, there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I've cried, prayed, hoped, wished, and God help me, I don't know who to turn to.

The unfairness of it all ):

I was watching Shoot! on Channel U, and the topic was blogs. They were discussing about all the hype about blogs and the point of blogs. And then I was like thinking, is it really such a big deal? I mean, writing is good! And honestly, I've learnt alot through blogs. Blogs like Momo's are really interesting and they get you thinking.

Oh by the way. There is bad news afterall. Shunhong's mum just delayed in complaining about me by 2 days. ): Now I'm wondering what exactly did I do wrong. I was told to be myself, and I did. By being honest and what came to mind. Oh well never mind. It's all done and over.

Communication is really important huh. If not there will be so much misunderstandings and displeasure. Life is totally going on the wrong track at the moment.

I have BIG NEWS!

I attended Shunhong's POP at Tekong yesterday! Oh but this is not the big news. The big news is, I went with his parents! HAHA so exciting. And I had dinner with them too. Contrary to what I initially thought, his parents are really nice and they're quite cute. But you know, they're quite intimidating sometimes. All in all it wasn't too bad. I think. Well, I asked Shunhong whether his parents said anything and he said no, so.. no news means good news, right? Haha.

Yan and Flor are going to be so proud of me.

Oh, there are alot of cute army boys know. Haha. I saw quite a few, and they're mostly officers. The coach for leadership workshop we had in school was quite pleasant looking too. And he went to OCS. I think it must be a trend. Or probably just that leaders tend to be good looking people. Maybe it's the other way round. Good looking people tend to be leaders. Aiya, whatever it is.

Anyway, it was raining during the parade. So everyone in the parade was drenched. I wonder how they stand it. I mean, it looks so uncomfortable with their uniform and helmets and SBO. Cos of the rain, Shunhong was so smelly! After the parade we couldn't leave, cos Mohawk was scheduled to leave the island last. So we were asked to go to the auditorium to wait and watch Mr Bean. Funny though, Mr Bean is forever so amusing no matter how many times you watch it.

Oh oh oh! Did I mention that I saw my aunt and uncle? Haha. I was actually praying that I wouldn't see them, cos I knew my cousin was in BMT too. I was kinda hoping that maybe my cousin is in school 1, or he's in another batch, or I just simply wouldn't see my aunt and uncle even if they were they. But you know what? My cousin is in Ninja, and my aunt and uncle were sitting right behind! They called me, and I turned and got a shock. So I told my aunt not to tell my mum that I was there. My aunt, who was very amused, said she knows. Haha.

You know I think the army uniform makes boys look very macho. They become men who protect the country. Haha that was cheesy. Anyway speaking of boy to man, I think Shunhong become quieter and more serious. Just a little. Maybe it's just me trying to find something out of nothing, or maybe I just never noticed it before.